Death Leads to Perspective

I just fell torn apart and sick wishing they would let me sleep, forever.... I hated waking up to the living world where people were senselessly cruel towards one another...
Cruelty that knew no bounds and caused people to kill themselves.......
It was a cruelty that spread like a virus but way far more vile than any that had existed....
Existed....? Such a funny word as I have forgotten what that means......is it a state of living perhaps it's not like anyone would know.....That I was a victim of that vile cruelty anytime soon.....